Hello and Goodbye
It is a common thing in life to meet someone and then say goodbye in the future. Don’t react. Life is always that way. You meet someone but then you need to let go of the other one. It is a matter of letting in and letting go for you can’t have everything in this world. Life needs to have a balance; sometimes you win, sometimes you lose; sometimes you cry, sometimes you laugh. And yes, it’s a cliche, I know.
However, hello and goodbye do not only pertain to the people you meet along the long and winding road, a lot of things can be applied also. It can be your work, your home, anything as long as you let go. That is the painful part of saying hello to a new world because eventually, there comes a point in time where you’re going to say goodbye.
I am currently experiencing this. I do not want to write it in details but I have said hello to something I have been dreaming. I was once happy for I got what I want in life. Yet, recently, I have just received a notification that my dreams have drifted away. I have come to say goodbye to it. So, thank you for that two months of experience. I did learn something from you. THANK YOU.
My emotions are mixed today. I am happy for my burden will be lighter but letting go of the thing I want most is a bit sad too. However, as I have said, life is really like this. It is a cycle…a way of life.
Tomorrow’s a Big Day!
The long wait is over. Tomorrow’s a big day – the judgement day as I shall call it.
I will be absent tomorrow for I need to go to the doctor. Finally, the day has arrived where I can say that I am again healthy or I am still having the illness. I still do not know it yet. All I know is that I feel better everyday; happier, in fact. Well, for tomorrow, this is how I’m going to have my day.
I will wake up early so I can be in the hospital early, too.
Meet the doctor and seek for advice.
Have my second round of Xray
Let the doctor evaluate it
If it’s not good, skin test will follow.
If it’s good, I’ll stop the medication
Whatever the outcome, I think I deserve to be happy and I will be, I know I will be. 
There’s nothing to be sad about, I think?
Second Round
It’s April already and the days are nearly hitting 23.
I’ll have my second shot of skin test again this April 23 to determine if I still have the bacteria residing in my left lung. I am quite excited that finally, after months of waiting I will know the result. Yet, I am worried at the same time because I might not have the result I want to have.
I have researched about my illness and I am really afraid if this gets to worse. I have studied it and have found out that if it gets to worse, I would be hospitalized and medicines will not be taken orally anymore but would be taken via injection. Imagining it makes me shiver already. I am afraid of needles! Yikes!
Anyway, aside from my second skin test, I will also have my second round of chest xray. Actually the xray comes first and if the spot is still there, skin test will come next.
I am a bit afraid but still hoping that it would turn out all right.
